Allow me to show you how you can heal and soar high into a life of joy and purpose…
My name is Julie-Anne. I was born into a toxic family environment with a violent father, a schizophrenic uncle and brother and a severely co-dependent mother – all of whom abused me.
When I was six years old my mother left my father and got involved with a religious cult – emotional and physical abuse along with deep neglect became my normal. I was also sexually abused for a while.
As a child I felt a huge sense of purpose and a sense that I was meant to do something more in the world. I experienced an innate wisdom as a child, although it was many years before I fully understood this. I also felt very alone, unloved, unaccepted and very different to the rest of my family.
Leaving home at sixteen, I was hugely determined and tenacious but suffered intense emotional pain in relationships.
Attracting unavailable men and suffering heartbreak over and over again, I made a decision to be in a relationship with my best friend to feel safe and escape the pain, even though I wasn’t romantically attracted to him. I felt deeply unfulfilled. We were together for ten years, during which time we travelled all over the world.
Finally finding the courage to leave, my old insecurities and patterns reemerged.
I embarked on a healing journey, including leaving the UK for the USA to work with coaches and teachers to heal my relationship issues..
I became a Relationship Coach myself, as well as training in other healing modalities.
Living and breathing the principles I had learned, I set an intention to meet the love of my life by the end of the year. Through a series of incredible synchronicities we met on 23rd December, just eight days from my intention deadline.
I was living my dream with the love of my life in beautiful California by the beach and teaching women all over the world.
But I began to notice something was very wrong. My husband had different personas. The craziness began – the twisted conversations, the rages, the insanity, the control and manipulation – and all in the name of “god” and “spirituality.” The particular brand of narcissistic abuse I suffered was Spiritual Narcissism, although i had no idea at the time. Then he would become incredible loving and kind again – the person I had fallen in love with, until the next outburst.
I walked on eggshells and became smaller and smaller until there was nothing left of me. I tried to brace myself each day for which person he would be, sometime hour to hour or even minute by minute.
I carried on teaching, in denial and desperately trying to hold onto my marriage. I felt deeply ashamed and abandoned by God given the journey I had been on to attract love. Nothing made sense.
After seven years, I left California for Bali. I had lost my whole identity as I had known it – my marriage, home, family and work. I later realized I had suffered severe narcissistic abuse. I began to have major panic attacks and a complete breakdown.
During the darkness and despair, I wrote and recorded an album “Met by Grace”, and I worked to release the trauma from my marriage and my childhood out of my body and get to know and love the little girl inside me on a level that I had never yet experienced. I came home to myself.
I realized my experience was a gift and opportunity for me to heal on a profound level, become the mother to myself that I never had and take all of the experience, wisdom, insights and healing gained to other women.
I started helping other women around the world and sharing my story, also doing performances where I share my story through my album with narration, imagery and an opportunity for the audience to ask questions, share and come together weaved in.
I began to thrive and help other women heal and soar too.