How to Navigate the Holiday Season after Narcissistic Abuse

The aftermath and aftershock of narcissistic abuse is horrific at any time but getting through the holiday season festivities can be especially painful.

Our emotions are all over the place and ranging from confusion and grief to downright rage, betrayal and even feelings of revenge and hatred.

People around us often do not understand what we’ve been through unless they have been there themselves.

Perhaps the narcissist has found new supply and they have seemingly sailed off into the sunset while you are left reeling with your whole life torn to pieces. (more…)

The Spiritual Narcissist

Narcissists exist in all fields and areas of life and truly, one of the most confusing, insidious and dangerous forms of narcissism is that of the religious or spiritual narcissist.

First and foremost, narcissists seek to gain A-grade supply from their prey, and they know that by placing themselves in a position of spiritual authority, they can easily disguise who they really are and be beyond reproach.

Working to gain the trust of vulnerable people with their often vast religious or spiritual knowledge along with feigning empathy and support, they can be very alluring, charismatic and extremely convincing.

My father was a narcissist and a religious fanatic. He physically and emotionally abused my mother and myself while quoting verses from the bible. Many times child protection services would be called followed by him marching off to church with a big Bible under his arm! (more…)

Healing the Loneliness and Isolation after Narcissistic Abuse

I remember well when I was first in the aftershock of narcissistic abuse and the realization that most people around me didn’t understand or have any idea what I was going through.

Recovering from a narcissistic relationship is nothing like a normal relationship break-up. While normal relationship break-ups can of course be excruciatingly painful, the aftermath of a narcissistic relationship is on a whole other level. We feel as though our soul has been raped. We feel them crawling under our skin. We feel ripped apart as though our very being has been invaded. We have often lost everything, our whole identity as we have known it. We may feel barely able to function, move or breathe and may question how we can go on living. Indeed, we feel we are losing our minds and people around us may question our sanity. (more…)

The Torment of the Scapegoat Child

The scapegoat child is the child that doesn’t match the narcissist’s ideas of what his child should be like.⠀

The scapegoat child is likely very empathetic, loving, considerate, vulnerable, insightful and emotional. This doesn’t match the narcissist’s false image of himself as superior and better than everyone else. The narcissist despises the qualities of the scapegoat child, seeing them as weak and inferior reminding him of his actual self behind the mask.⠀

Therefore, he callously uses the child as a scapegoat to blame, persecute, invalidate and project his own inner feelings of worthlessness onto.

The trauma of being the scapegoat runs deep. The feelings of unworthiness, powerlessness and hopelessness stay with them, making them highly susceptible to narcissistic abuse later in life. (more…)

When Narcissist Flaunts his New Supply

Being discarded by the narcissist for new supply and watching him seemingly sailing off into the sunset as though you never existed, is truly one of the most devastating experiences imaginable.

Your life has likely been completely shattered on every level – your emotions, your health, your spirit, your sense of sanity and likely your finances. Yet, the narcissist seems to have got away with the most horrific and inhumane behavior and not only that, seems to be doing so well without you, flaunting his new supply right in front of you.

There you are barely able to function while his life seems to be going from strength to strength and is seemingly much better than when he was with you.

You wonder whether it’s all your fault after all. How can this be? Perhaps he was right, and you really are the crazy one.

Now, let’s look at what’s ACTUALLY going on. (more…)

Feeling Guilty and Sorry for the Narcissist

One of the hooks of narcissistic abuse is that we can feel sorry for them or overly responsible for the narcissist.

The narcissist often has multiple personas. One of these can be the “lost, sensitive and hurting little boy.” (or girl). He may even cry and plead to be forgiven that he will go to a therapist or the behavior will never happen again and how sorry he is.
So many of us have seen that these “sensitive” episodes do not last. Very quickly the narcissistic is back to their rageful, manipulative and controlling real self and blaming you.

Even if a narcissist agrees to see a therapist it is mostly simply a tactic to keep you hooked in and they will usually seek to manipulate and control the therapist and often succeed, leaving you reeling and re-traumatized. (more…)